The age old saying...

Men are strange creatures.

Occasionally I look at them and think 'maybe God was distracted when making them, because they hardly ever make sense to me'.

Guys are puzzles.

Basic ideas are often lost on them. Their logic and ways of thinking are either confusing or blaring simple that you over look it. You tell them things that you believe are important and it's "in one ear and out the other". But they often remember things you said weeks ago that you believed to be trivial and not worth the memory space. They are sweet but are often jerks. They try to do the right thing, but more often than not it is not even close.

Often oblivious about how girls feel about them. Be it good or bad. They go after the girls they know they will never get and completely ignore the ones right in front of them. Or they play with the ones that care for them and then completely shut them down. I hate the saying, "You're like a sister to me." OR "I'm so glad you're my best friend." THEY SUCK! Guys are allowed to string girls along and play them like dolls. Then they get away with it!

How many a time have you seen two girls go after the same guy and when one of them gets rejected they go after the other girl instead of the guy. It's not the girls fault! The jerk that brushed you off is the one you should be mad at, not her. It's like guys are operating on a whole different set of rules then girls.

The whole situation is one I hate.

But at the same time I thrive, or at least think I do.

And yet, I'm still stuck. I like a guy. He's cute, smart, athletic and generally a nice guy. But there is no way that I am going to tell him that I like him. He is in that whole "no touchy" area. Not to mention that seeing each other is quickly becoming complicated. I haven't seen him in a long time. But we still talk and I enjoy that. Gah! This is starting to get ridiculous! I have never been good at crushes. Mostly because I never tell the person that I have a crush on that I do. Sometimes I come close to practically throwing myself at them and more often than not they either like my best friend or go date someone else.

I seem to always be stuck in the role of confidant. The go between for the two parties when I really like the same guy. But no! I have to be the noble one and sacrifice my feelings for my friends. For once I wish I could be selfish and just say no. But I know that I never will. I just can't even begin to picture what would happen if I could. It probably wouldn't be pretty and I would feel horrible the whole time.

Gosh Darn this thing called a conscience!

I'm stuck in a vicious cycle.

I like a guy. I do nothing to show him I do. I try encouraging him to date someone (thinking he is talking about me). He dates one of my friends. And I'm left feeling heartbroken. It has happened time after time. I'm the friend. I'm the one the guy says "Thank you, I couldn't have done it without you." Then runs off with the girl of his dreams while I'm left standing on the corner smiling sadly.

It sucks for now.

But I at least have the dream that someday it really will happen like it does in fairy tales and Chick Flicks. That I will be the one that he is running off with someday.

*le sigh*

Sorry about that. One should never watch romantic tragedies when one is tired and cranky...